Well I am Pregnant!! While we were in Idaho, I had my mom and sister help us take some pictures to announce our pregnancy. It was windy, rainy and freezing but we got a picture haha.
I'm due between May 10 and 18. It still seems so unreal to me, that I actually have a baby growing inside of me, that I am going to be a mom.
The week (September 4th ish) I found out I was pregnant I wrote this:
'Well Thursday night I found out I was pregnant. I can't even explain all the emotions that I experienced.
In August my period was a week late, so I took a pregnancy test. Kev and I were pretty disappointed.
This month it had been four days and no period. I didn't
want to get my hopes up, neither of us wanted to. But it was driving
me crazy not knowing. So thursday night I finally peed on the stick. I
was so nervous; I was shaking. After a couple minutes I went back to
look at the stick. I couldn't believe. Kev was on the couch, I yelled
for him. He came to the bathroom asking if I was OK. I pointed to the
stick. He was so excited; we were so excited. We hugged and laughed.
I am still so excited and yet so nervous. I am nervous
about the changes of my body. I'm extremely nervous about labor; what
if I can't handle the pain. Can I really be a mom; am I ready to be a
mom; will I be a good mom?
But I can not wait to hold this baby in my arms; this
spirit who would have just come from heaven. I can't wait to see our
baby, see what he or she looks like. I can't wait see and have Kevin
be a dad. He is going to be such a good one. I truly am so excited to
be a mom and be part of God's plan.
Hopefully this baby will be here around May 10th. We have already started making plans. We honestly can't wait!'
When I went to my first doctor's appointment they did an ultrasound. I was only around 6 or 7 weeks and the baby was a tiny bean. But I could see the heart racing, which was pretty weird to me. But the doctor confirmed that I actually was pregnant!
At my next appointment they tried to hear the heart beat but couldn't find it. This really scared me. (For some reason I am really scared that I will have a miscarriage. None of the women in my family have struggled with this, but I am very scared about it. I don't think I could handle it very well.) But lucky enough for us we got another ultrasound. I was shocked when we saw an actual baby. It looked like a baby. I so wish we would have thought to record the ultrasound or at least get a picture. I think we were both kind of awestruck haha. They baby even had like a little hiccup. It hit me a little more that I am actually pregnant. But it only lasted for about a day :)
I am about 18 weeks now. I have a little bump, I feel uncomfortable, and I can't sleep very good. And yet, I still don't believe I am pregnant. It just hasn't really hit me. I know something is happening to my body but it is hard for me to believe that I actually have a baby inside of me.
So far I have been so lucky! So blessed! One Saturday I started feeling really sick, the next Monday morning I tried to throw up. Then I figured it out, as long as I have food in my stomach, at ALL times, I felt fine. So I was never really sick. I tried to throw up like 3 times in total but I never had anything in my stomach to throw up. I was really worried about Morning Sickness, especially because I had to drive to Sandy every morning and I wasn't really sure how that sickness would effect my drive. I don't know if the Lord has just blessed me a lot right now since I am working or if I am just lucky and don't really have the full on morning sickness. Whatever it is, I am VERY grateful. While I haven't been sick, I have been extremely tired. I thought it would get better after the first trimester. But the last couple weeks I have slept terrible. Every time I move there is pain in my stomach, which wakes me up. It is making me a little nervous since I am not that far along. I still don't think I have felt my baby move. Maybe I have, but I just can't tell if my stomach is doing weird things or if it is actually the baby. I am really excited to be able to feel it move. Even more excited for when Kev will be able to feel the baby.
On the 31st we will hopefully find out if we are having a boy or a girl. Kev is convinced we are having a boy...since he "told the Lord"...silly guy. I am so curious to see what it is, I go through phases where I think I am having a boy, then phases where I think it is girl. So we shall see!
